Now..

.....that I have a new desk, I have new ambitions.

Does it start like that, you get more and you start wanting more?

even if you don't have enough for more?

.....end of year and I can honestly say that this year has been good to me.

I have a job, I am healthy, I have a wonderful person by my side, ASMUN is still going on, my friends are doing well, my family is holding on and the weather was horrible for just one week of the whole year.

Could you possibly ask for more?

......finance are not doing great, but then again I never thought they would do well.

Money can't buy you love.

......I am going away this weekend to see the sea and sleep under the sun,

I can't stop thinking about this weekend.

Can you?

Please consider bigger dreams this up-coming year.

Consider the big dream that ties your stomach in knots that only he can de-tangle,

Consider actually holding on to what you've got and not what you don't have.

Please, for the millionth time, pick your battles.

Talk to yourself more about choices and decisions, about you car maintenance and your next December, talk to yourself more about intentions beyond actions, about inconsiderate people and the considerate ones.

"TALK TO YOURSELF",he said

Please let me be in my space.

and silence, do not disturb my silence.

Please know when I am tired and when I can't take being tired any longer.

And when you read this, please consider the up-coming line

"I have never loved any one as much"

I Had to Get It Out of the System

I hope you recognize the times I fought for you just as much as you recognize the times I let you down

Conversation II

"You make love songs sound naive and artless"

"It is "us" that make this both real and divine, not me alone neither you alone"

" I believe"

Will those blossoms last,

the serene house by the river?

Our vows, forgotten?

Drifting with the stream.

Shall darkness estrange us,

upon agony, will we walk?

Bitterness hindering,

the view of blossoms,

the river fades.

Shall our home remain,

where our peace and war lay.

Time, as the unknown

lose distance from me upon your sight

I wonder at the summer blossoms,

do flowers grow without pain?

I beg the moon to stay full,

for eternity.

Oh blossoms, if you stay

and the river never fades away

(In an attempt to translate Amel Donquol)

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وردية أحياناً

أنا أم الإله
و أنا ابنتك المدللة
وأنا كل الجوع و أنتَ كل الحنان
فى حياتنا سوياً كافة الاحتملات
ولا تلعب الأقدار دورها المعتاد
علمتنى غش القدر
علمتنى الشعر
و مغازلة القمر
تسبح بداخلى
و تخرج
صائحاً بلغة لم تُعرف قبلك
أنا لا أنتظر اعتراف
فأنا أعلم جميع الأشياء
أعلم ما تريد قوله و متى
أنتَ لى
كل المدى
كيف تتعجب من كونى ما أكون
و أنتَ الذى سوانى أنا
أنا لك لإنى لكَ خُلقت
و أنتَ من خلقنى
و كل ما غيرنا صدى

Who's in?

Not so long ago I used to pay more attention to art in all forms, cultural exposure, gatherings of friends, travel plans, shopping, enjoying my five senses and adding colour to the lives I witness.
My priorities shifted a little over the past few months and it is time for some soul reviving activities:

1. Set my mind and time on finishing those books I started reading.

2. Read more.

3. Have a more organized calender of the happenings of the week.

4. Talk less and listen more.

5. Don't let the lack of money hold me back.

6. Engage in fruitful conversations, and only those.

7. Plan the Eid vacation ahead.

8. Write daily.

Conversation I

You shouldn't be wishing me luck nor strong will,
You should be wishing me irrationalism and randomness to survive this chaotic mess I was born into.
You shouldn't be wishing me sanity, inner peace, imagination or knowledge.
You shouldn't promise me change or even the hopes for it.

All you need to say is this,
"Live and let live"
In replies of that I tell you,
"Our justice will be served when it is time to leave the mess"