Personal and Not Twisted

I've been putting things off for the lack of my financial abilities to do them, and it stresses me out.
I've always liked to believe that money doesn't matter. And to my surprise, I found out that it actually does matter a great deal.
List time....


Things to do this month:
1) Start those French courses I've been wanting to do ever since collage.
2) Get my laptop from the PC clinic.
3) Fix my car's right mirror.
4) Treat us to this nice dinner.
5) Take Kiki out for sushi.
6) Haircut?
7) Buy a navy polo shirt.
8) Decide on ASMUN
9) Get my driving lisence back.
10) Pay for the converse I told one of my shcool friends to buy me while she is in the States.


Since my blog is something I like to keep doing I decided to ease out on the twisted personal writings and make it a bit more comprehensible to the public.

So, I signed my contract that other week and you are now looking at the Internal Legal Advisor of this place (big titles while doing little things are fun). I'm expecting my business cards to arrive anytime.
I got into 2 air-fights with 2 different friends and still need to talk to my best friend about a couple of things but can't seem to find the time.

I want to vanish into thin air.

What I Don't Want Forgotten

اسطول الحرية
أزمة المحامين و القضاه
إعتصام العمال و الممرضين و المُعلمين
التزوير الفج الغبى لإنتخابات الشورى
خالد سعيد
محاكمتى و انا بريئة كل البراءة من شتى أنواع الظلم التى تحوطهم

Israeli Attack of the medical convory going harmlessly to Gaza
Escalation of the situation between Lawyers and Judges
Forgery of The Shura Council Elections
Sit-in of workmen, nurses and teachers
Khaled Saed
Judging the helpless creature of me while letting all of the above go uncared for

يريدونها سلمية
يجبرون دماءهم المراقة على غزو جسدى
يمجدون التغيير و يلعنوه ألف مرة
استسبق الاحداث
ارفض
ابحث عن حريتى قبل كل شىء
تعنيهم اسبابى و يفشلون فى استيعابها
العن
فتشوه الوجود أوله الاستسلام

إلتقاء الأرواح

لم يقتصر بحثى الدائم عنك على القصائد و الروايات
فهو يمتد إلى الصحف اليومية
و تداخل الأصوات
فى الأحجار الكريمة
فى غرف الانتظار
فى كتب القانون و السياسة و المدونات
حتى أوراق الشجر
لم تسلم من محاولتى العثور عليك فى كل الأشياء

Silence

I concentrated on day dreaming those working hours away.

I remember you and how you function.

I still insist that doing nothing counts as an activity, a worth doing activity.

إدعاء الثورة

فشلت كل محاولاتى لإيمانى بقدرٍ سواك
انهيت تساؤلاتى الدائمة حول مصير العالم
فلتذهب البشرية للجحيم
لتحل الفوضى
فبقاؤنا هنا قليل

Growing

I wear prints, all sorts of prints.
I'm very loud and I cuse often.
I lose attention easily.
I cry for very good reasons that I can't vocalize.
I talk before I think.
I'm vain.
I can't stand my family sometimes.
I get nervous break downs.
I like appreciation.
I like red nail polish.
I like sotires, listened and told all the same.
And you,
You are distant and quiet and I can do nothing about it.
You are what you say you are.
You take decisions and take them back regularly.
You speak your mind when it doesn't make sense.
You worry too much.
You think too much.
You need things told more than twice before you can actually listen or process them.
Your family gets on your nerves and you do nothing about it.
But that's ok,
All of it,
Isn't it?